...Yesterday Was My Birthday!...

So now i am 34 years old...can you believe it?...thanks to all the love i got from everybody and to all the love i didn't get either...for a minute i got kinda sad about the people that didn't say anything but i never stay sad about things for too long cuz why think about the negative for more than a minute??? it was only a minute but i felt so shitty...and i did it to myself...so what if people don't acknowledge me...i felt these people as judases...they copy and take from me what they want but then deny me their respect...i know and God knows what really is, and if they don't want to give me props then they don't have to, it's their choice...karma goes around and comes around...i might have felt this retarded feeling for a minute but these other people might really be suffering and struggling...i don't know what is going on in their lives, nor do i want to but i have to remember that i am not the only one on this planet...not everyone will be there for me when i really need them...i have found this out living for 34 years in the life that was given to me...it's so different from how i am though...i am always there for you when you need me...i have helped and given my love to so many people...no one is like me, not even half the person i am...and sometimes like yesterday i have to remember that there is just me...so many of you try to be like me but you can't, you can never be...but i will continue to inspire, and love the world...i am still learning...but at least i didn't start crying and feeling all sorry for myself and hating the world...i got lots of love from people and i am happy that even people i haven't seen for a while took the time out of their lives to remember me and send me recognition...but also i didn't go announce my birthday to the world, lol...i celebrate my life everyday!!!...i am thankful and grateful for everything i have!!!...i work hard in more ways than one...i take care of myself, no one else takes care of me...this is how its been my whole life, no mother, no father, just myself...teach myself, live by myself, live with God, learn from God..............with this i think of prayer...with hands in prayer position i ask for forgiveness and strength...strength to overcome...strength to not let little bits and pieces of negativity enter my body and mind...it's all in your head anyway!!!...prayer has power...your words put out vibrations in the atmosphere that travel to the heavens!!!...your prayers do get answered, we have to accept the answers and realize that they are given to us in many other ways than just the obviously seen...i hate that i felt bad for a minute yesterday, i am better and stronger than that...and so are you!!!...even when you are in the wilderness with no one around for miles you are never alone...the spirits are always there to protect us and see us off...have faith that we don't need anyone to feel happy...i found that out a long  time ago but i am not perfect and still catch myself like yesterday not remembering this...today is a new day, yesterday was beautiful and today is also very beautiful!...live everyday like this, even if you are the only one...i love all of you...