...Yes...

and i am still figuring stuff out...i had an overall good day...except for the weird dinner i walked out on it was good...i have so many desires and things i know i need...one thing at a time, i have to be patient...going to the gym has been so awesome for me...i know that if i stick with it i will be so awesome and cant wait to see myself in 6 months...just stick with it!!!...yes, i am still doing Yoga...i have gotten away from waking up at 4am to meditate and do my breathing exercises and am sad because of it...from experience, the meditation has been very important for my self growth...the awesome thing is that it is never the same...even the ways i meditate have never been the same...sometimes its visual, sometimes i see things with my eyes closed...and accompanied with the breathing exercises i used to have so much energy...i have been trying to wake up at 4 but its so freakin cold i just decide to lay back in bed...but i have a heater...i have jackets and sweaters...self-discipline, just do it!...i know all the benefits...i have felt it...getting back home to san diego has been an adjustment, but i am not going back to my old ways...i have been completely sober for 3 months now and dont miss poisoning myself...i feel so good because of it...i feel so good because i am riding my bicycle to the gym and working out...there is so much more i can be doing but i feel impatient sometimes...i pray all the time and know that if i do a little something everyday to get to where i wanna be i will eventually get there...
here is something cool taken from my old book 'Natural Law In The Spiritual World' by Drummond: this is a quote actually from John Ruskin:
"Is it not the evidence of Ease on the very front of all the greatest works in existence?  Do they not say plainly to us, not 'there has been a great effort here,' but 'there has been a great power here'?  It is not the weariness of mortality but the strength of divinity, which we have to recognize, but think that we are to do great things by help of iron bars and perspiration; alas! we shall do nothing that way, but lose some pounds of our own weight."

yes, it takes more....................