twists and turns, which way to go...my mind pulling me here and there...people shouting "over here!", "no, over here!!!"...i am not at a fork in the road but at the beginning of many roads...i wonder if i can take this path over here and somehow jump to this one over there later on...im sure they all meet up somewhere...maybe they never do...i don't know...this is so confusing, what did u say?...i can't do what?...i am so free that sometimes i feel not so free...i can do and say whatever i want, that is my rite, but can i really?...can i really go down this path over here?...who or what is stopping me?...fear...fear is stopping me...not fear of death but fear of life and all the living things i care and don't care so much about...as i make myself worry for no reason and wonder and dream i finally come up with a way...my own way...all of a sudden all these fiery narrow paths that don't seem to go anywhere have cleared away...now there is sunshine and light and a broad open field of green soft grass, and blah blah blah, u know what it looks like...it would seem as if i am telling a story made up in fairy fantasy worlds but thats how it really is when u finally figure out where u r going...everything is clear and beautiful...i have a plan now...i have one major goal i will work on, instead of 20...and after i accomplish this one, then i can start my next dream...because nothing to me is impossible...all these distractions have led me back to the beginning of this path, this way...i had a vision, and it got distorted...but now the clear picture has returned and i am ready to make things happen...my life is magical..............